Ten Week Program

Sometimes it just isn't pretty.  I am alright with that because whatever this body of mine is is because of my own doing.  

Right now I am really, really, really proud of what I am doing.  I am getting up and putting some serious effort into 45 minutes of whatever they have to offer me.  I am finding the solutions to my body's problems.  I am pushing myself a little and a lot harder.  I am loving me and what I can do.

I am no longer listening to the voices that say words like 

when I am skinnier

I used to be skinnier

I will be happy when I don't have this fat

I am speaking louder with words like

I am getting healthier

I am pretty strong

I am happy with this work in progress

I am no longer participating in the body shaming club.  I love me.  I hope you love you and if you don't love you, please find the why and think about all that you do in a day that makes you and your body so very, very lovable.  

Attached are my before and after stats and photos for a ten week session of cardio kickboxing and band strength training.  With the exercise program, I ate moderately healthy.  I ate five meals of carbs and protein the size of my fist and palm respectively.  I ate a sixth meal before bed of just protein.  I added 96 ounces of water a day to my diet as well.  

I did not win the ten week challenge.  I did not come home with $1000, in fact, I came home with $699 less as I continued with the program.  That is $2.25 a session.  I am so worth that.  I am worth a positive and healthy environment where I can push myself and not feel like I have to compare myself.  I am worth getting stronger and more flexible.  I am worth knowing that I can throw a right jab and then knock a mother out with my left cross.  I am worth leaving whatever I need to leave on the mat, sweat for sure, sometimes tears and always the day's hurt and anger and disappointment.  

There are a lot of hokey sayings in the exercise class world.  Things like "you can do anything for 30 seconds.  Give it your level ten.  You got this!"  In fact, I cannot do anything for 30 seconds, but a plank, squats, burn outs, those I can do now.   Level ten is the max, pushing through and finding the new level of success.  And I do, I got this.