Saturday, February 25, 2012

this saying

"when you are going through something hard and wonder where god is, remember the teacher is always quiet during a test"
So maybe you have seen this saying floating around facebook.  It is pissing me off a little.  I feel like it goes against everything I know to be true about God.
First of all, He does not test us.  Satan has cornered that market.  God has given us free will and lets us just have at it.  The decisions we make are our own and He often shakes his head, I am sure, as we muck things up, but I don't think He sets out tests and trials just to see how we would do.
The idea that God is sitting in His throne room arranging clay models of us ala 80s version of Clash of the Titans just seems absurd to me. 
So that is my beef with the quiet during a test part. 
My beef with the rest of the saying is a bit longer.
If I list the hardest moments of my life and then check Yes or No by each moment where I could hear the Lord's voice, I would honestly have to say that I would have to check Yes.  Now as long as I am being honest, I would then have to put an asterisk by each moment that I chose not to listen.  Or chose to respond to God with "get lost" or worse.  He was never silent. 
The worst personal moments for me were when I was cutting.  I wouldn't have listened to anyone, least of all, God.  Even as an adult I would purposely shut Him out.  But He was always speaking to me.  Through those that knew I was hurting, He reached out to me.  I just didn't want to hear that I was loved.  I wasn't left to my own devices to try and pass the test, the challenge, the 40 days in the desert.
I don't know why this saying has really gotten under my skin. 
Well, it blows a lot of hole in the Footprints message.  I mean, if God isn't listening, how is He carrying me.  It also does not line up well with Hebrews 13:5.  I will never leave you or forsake you.
Now I suppose you could argue that during the test, the teacher is silent, but still in the room.  But that isn't going to fly with me because with faith there is never a moment where you are alone.  That is what faith is. 
Whew. 

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