This Question is Kind of a Whammy

When have I felt the most radiant? 
Radiant-  Like when I have I felt the most alive, the most purpose filled, the most loved?  That's some heavy duty thinking for me.
Easily, those moments when I first met Ashlyn, Hayley and Jacob are the moments that I have felt the most powerful and successful.  Bringing a life from point A to point B is pretty powerful and actually getting them there is a huge success.  But I can't go around having babies all the time so though it is the most obvious, it will be shelved for the remainder of this blog.

So the heart of this question is that when I felt most radiant I was probably doing what I was called to do. 
I was happy when Danny and I were night managers at Extreme Body Shaping.  I was really surprised by how much I enjoyed the work I did there.  I think because taking an exercise class was a big step outside my comfort zone.  Being successful at that followed by signing people up for exercise classes made me feel like I was certainly offering something to someone that was worthwhile.  When I started teaching, first bands, and later kickboxing, I felt invincible.  Especially when I knew that people were actually getting a good work out on my watch. 
I have often thought about getting back into that type of activity.  FXB has changed up their formula just enough that it feels like a terribly remodeled home.  By no means do I mean that the program is bad, its just not comfortable to me.  I have gone back a couple of times and, well sometimes one can't go home.
So I have considered the Y or other workout facilities, but have never taken that leap.
I do remember when we lived in SoCal in 1992 and I would do double work outs with Denise Austin and Gilead.  Denise Austin was introduced as a exercise physiologist.  I had no idea what that was, but was curious about it as a career.  And then I got pregnant and I was radiant for a different reason.
But when Danny and I were talking about buying the FXB location, I was not radiant.  I was sick with the idea of taking on that kind of debt and responsibility.  Plus we had new issues to take care of shortly after we decided against the purchase.  But I do regret not keeping exercise in my life in a more prominent way.  Maybe I need to revisit that again, seek out different avenues that are available to me, or maybe I just need to pop in the DVD of my old friend Denise and radiate for free.
I don't think that is where I am supposed to be, exercising with people.  I don't find my heart pulled there.  I cannot articulate how my heart is being pulled. 

Oh, the last time I was radiant was on vacation, but not because I was on vacation but because I was with people I loved.  You will find me that radiant tomorrow night when Ashlyn and I go to the movies.  I will be that radiant this weekend when Hayley comes home for the weekend.  Apparently I light up when Danny stops in at work to take me to lunch.  I practically beam when Jacob pops by to get more hair color, Arizona tea and candy bars.  But that is a different kind of radiant from the fulfilled by my job radiant.  That is the WOW look how blessed I am kind of radiant.  (which is the best kind)